One question has seemed to plague my mind since my arrival
back from Zambia. In fact, it is the
question that has plagued me for quite a while: Am I enough? I have no doubt that we have all asked this
question in one form or another. Am I
good enough? Was that kind enough? Did I do enough? We complete an assignment and we ask if we
tried hard enough. A relationship fails
and we ask if we loved enough. Someone
rejects us and, if we are insecure, we ask if we are good enough. When I returned to the States I found myself
asking if I had done enough while I was gone.
I quickly dismissed this since I knew that I had given my whole heart
while away. But then another was raised,
am I doing enough now? In fact, is who I
am good enough? Do I somehow have to
prove my worth by what I do or say or how I love? It is easy for me to dismiss
this question with the ingrained truth: of course I don’t have to prove
anything. But still, in the depths of me
it nagged, pulling at my heartstrings incessantly. Do I love people enough? Do I love God enough? Am I enough?
Then one night I heard that gentle voice (oh I love that voice!)
whispering a variation of the ever popular phrase “enough is enough!” Instead He said, “Enough of enough.” Enough asking if I am or ever could be
enough. Enough saying the words not
enough or more than enough. Instead
speak the word: complete. Full. Scripture says that in Him we have been made
complete. Have you ever noticed that if
something is complete there is simultaneously no lack and no space for
addition? It is not more than enough,
nor is it not enough; it simply is complete.
In Him I am complete, lacking nothing, full; take your pick; I’ll take
any of those any day of the week. But
the awesome part is that I am all of those, every day of the week! There is rest for me in completion. It takes the work out of, well,
everything. I pray that you also find rest in the
completion/fullness Christ gave you through His work on the cross. And with that, dear friends, I do believe
this post is…well…complete. ;)
Grace and Peace
